The State Of Ummah Today

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Compassionate And The Most Merciful

I feel so blessed today. It’s the end of my stay at the camp and I’ll be returning to my unit tomorrow. I wish I could stay longer but Allah has indicated a dateline. Nevertheless, I’m drawing closer to my ORD date. All praise be to Allah!

It’s also the start of my Arabic class! Exciting? Definitely. There were so many things I learnt during the class. Not only did we learn Arabic and a bit of rules and regulations in the Quran, he imparted other ilmu which made me realise how lucky I am and how grateful I should be to Him.

Before I went to class, I was joking with my mum:

Me: I’m going for Arabic lessons.
Mum: Whoaa, ok good, when you get home, you can teach me.

Me: Can, insyaAllah, if you pay me $65 per month (the monthly course fee I had to pay). If you want to use my book, also can, $50.
Mum: Hahaha.

But what my teacher told us made me re-think what I said to her.

Sheykh, ustaz and etc are names. The ilmu is not mine but it’s meant to be shared with everyone.

When everyone was asking questions, I was just freaking scared. I think it’s not in the Asian, particularly Singapore, culture to be vocal in school. Maybe I was just scared? I do not know.

When you do not know, you ask. When you engage in a convo with an ustaz, you will get the barakah ilmu. That’s the adab for seeking knowledge. When I was in school, I was the first one to come and the last one to leave. That’s coz I got something from the teacher and the rest didn’t get… coz they left!

I’m desperately trying to kick this “shy shy wanna ask questions” attitude. May Allah guide me in doing so. Amin.

I was feeling great after the lesson when something else got me thinking. It’s that comment from a friend of mine 2 days ago during lunch.

You see, we were talking about the Muslim dude who has many many wives and kids and he had intercourse with the kids. His story was in the papers like 2 years ago. And there was this idiot who had to say this:

Tu laa kalau warak sangat, jadi macam tu.
Translation: If you practice too much Islam, you will be like that guy.

I just didn’t have the appetite to eat after that. My stomach was churning and it made me sick. Just how hurt and sad I felt about that, I do not know how to describe.

Does that mean, all practising Muslims will be like that? Imam Hafiz Mekkah? Ulama? Habib-habib? So, you can be a Muslim, but it’s better not to practice the religion? I do not know.

His statement summarizes the state of the ummah. It may be brief, but it tells a long story. The slave of Allah who isn’t equipped with ilmu will talk crap. I can go debate with him and stuff, but who am I to do so, for I am not knowledgable. I guess it’s almost the end of days.

We’ve got the kuffar and Muslims on our plate now. Do you know how tough it is to answer people why they are not practicing their religion? I can’t just tell them, “Oh, they’re destined for hell” or, “They are not Mulims”.

In Singapore, I have never seen a non-Muslim stereotyping a Muslim. Alhamdulillah! But, this happens everyday… a Muslim stereotyping a practicing Muslim. Now we have a complex problem.

Sometimes, because of this, deep down inside, I tell Him, “I do not agree or I protest, to what you are doing to me now (putting me through NS)”. But who am I to protest? It’s a relationship between a slave and a master. The slave must obey the master no matter what. Hasn’t the master (Allah) been great to us? Bismillah hirahma nirrahim which means: In The Name Of Allah, The Most Compassionate And The Most Merciful. I must get rid of this negative mindset. May Allah guide me in doing so. Amin.

I’ll end this entry with a quote from Sheykh Khalil Moore (how I miss this guy so so much):

When your handphone doesn’t get any reception, maybe it’s the network. We always say it’s the network problem. If it’s the phone, what do you have to do? You send it to the shop and get it fixed so that you’ll have a handphone which has reception and thus be able to receive messages or calls.

Are your receptors working? If they are not, where can you get it fixed? If it’s not working, you won’t be able to receive anything.

Have a blessed night ya’ll.